All music and lyrics by Christy Sechrist [BMI] except where noted.
Album: PRETTY PIECES
1. Grounded
2. Push and Pull
3. Dare Me
4. Matthew (Nobody But You)
5. Take It Back
6. Foolish Lessons
7. Novacaine
8. Hopelessly Broken
9. Want to Feel Something
10. Only Human
11. Stupid
12. In Love and War
Album: HIGH TIDES AND BLUE SKIES…
1. Burning Through Me
2. What Your Love Could Do
3. Pray For Happy
4. How To Hate
5. Love Me Too
6. Shatter Me
7. All The Misery
8. Nothing New
9. Tonight
10. There’s No Changing The World
11. Because I Love You
12. Square One
Album: PANIC GRACEFULLY
1. Other Side of the Radio
2. Teenage Disaster
3. Empty-Handed
4. Here In This Moment
5. Beautiful Irony
6. Am I Dreamin’?
7. God Knows
8. Like Heaven
9. When I Start To Wonder
10. The Rest of My Life
11. Reasons To Walk Away
12. Hey, Mr. Misery
Non-Album Tracks
~ I Keep Holding On [from the Some Kind of Miracle soundtrack]
~ Matthew (Nobody But You)
~ Novacaine [from the Devolution soundtrack]
Album: HIGH TIDES AND BLUE SKIES…
Hey, you, I can see right through/you’re scared and unsteady, shy but ready/ listen closely, I know what you need cause you are the other side of me// You’re like the sun, always burning right through me/You’re a thrill ride, my way o the other side and tonight will be your night if you play the game right // Sweet release, you’re the death of me/not a thing I can do to get away from you/nobody understands you put your blood on my hands/no, I can’t get away//
I’m not gonna lie, I’m already over you/so when you come around,
oh, and you’ll come around/I won’t be here waiting this time//I’m over and under, losing my mind/every time/sometimes I wish I never knew what your love could do/sometimes I wish I never knew you/but it’s a past I can’t let go/’cause you’re all I know/what to do, wish I had a clue/sometimes I wish I never knew/what your love could do//Maybe I’m not so sure, but I’m getting there/now you’re gone/I’m moving on/finally found my love cure//I’m not over you, but I’m getting there.
I believe in real love and fake adoration/I lead with blissful ignorance and real frustration/cause I have no will for peaceful revelation/when my world is all but devastation/I will believe everything you tell me and promise not to disagree/cause I wanna believe you wouldn’t lie/and I hope someday this all will be mine//In the dark, where you stay/there’s only heaviness and pain/won’t go back and live the way/you only feel when it starts to rain/all those washed up friends you trust say it’s Vegas or bust/you know I won’t let you stay lost/is it really worth the cost? Get down on your knees with me, we’ll pray for happy//I wanna call you mine and I’m sure you feel same/I don’t know why you always play this stupid game/you’re gone one minute/come back the next day/all I ever have to do is sit back and wait/I love your eyes and their simple evocation/leading me to wrong, but praying for salvation/some things are better left to the imagination/like how we’ll overcome the odds we’re facing//In the light, where we stay/there’s only happiness and faith/won’t go back and live the way you used to feel only endless pain/all those broken lies you trusted, living Vegas or busted//
I never meant to hurt you/and even though you knew I would, you stayed anyway/That makes you so much braver than I could be/or maybe just more insane/By the way, I have finally found a way to forgive myself for all the self-sabotage I do/By the way, I have finally found a way to make it through//What do I have to do to hold you in my arms again/oh, and what do I have to do to feel alive again/It’s been lonely and cold in the night, on my own/I’ve been broken and lost/in the light, i have faught//I never wanted to let you go I know I had to/you let me push you away/and that makes you weaker than I knew/or maybe just more sane/By the way, I don’t need you to teach me how to hate myself/’cause I already do it so well/By the way, I don’t need you to teach me how to hate this life/’cause I can and you know I do it right//
Oh, I know, you don’t love me too/I know and I feel it too/I wish you knew, you break my heart again everyday I see you/oh, and I know/you’re the life of me/I know you’re meant for me If I should let you down/I know, I’d never be the same again
You love to watch me fall/it always makes your day/when I stand alone against the wall/’cause God knows, I don’t want to play/try to force me along for the ride//Keep trying to shatter me/my mind is full of pretty things/I’m all about happy endings/keep pushing, it doesn’t matter to me/try all you want, you’re never gonna shatter me//You break the rules I dare not bend/but I take chances and defend those heaven forbid I choose to defend/those who make mistakes and God knows, I don’t want to play your stupid games//
When you let go/I find it hard to see the end of tunnel/oh, I know, your heart’s the pieces at the end of the funnel/I’m sorry I broke you down again/I’m sorry for now and I’m sorry for then//Never been down before I knew you/I never let go, til I knew I was through/You make me look deeper down inside myself/don’t let me get back up until I’m well/and you bend me back until I break/You’re all the misery I can take//When you step back/it’s harder and harder to see you and get life back on track/time to start over new/I’m sorry I broke you down again…//I’m sorry I tried, sorry you lied/sorry I cried, sorry you tried too/I’m sorry I never chose sides/I’m sorry I never really knew you//
Once again, my heart is in pieces/we couldn’t find the balance we needed/just too stubborn and too alike/just too ‘perfect’ to be right/I’d like to think you’re alone watching TV in your room/while I’m out in the rain/hope I’m not alone in my pain//I’d like to think one day you’ll see, you won’t find another girl like me/but I’ll find a thousand men just like you/who’d do anything to hide the truth- being alone, for me, is nothing new/but it kills you to see me happy/I was the worst person you could lose/this pain is nothing new to me//I gave you everything you wanted/now I see, I’m the one left haunted/wish we’d never got started/I’m the one who always ends up broken-hearted/I’d like to think you know you made a mistake/hope you figure it out before it’s too late/you were never that good with these things/so all you could think of was to walk away…
Oh, I wanted you/but I wasn’t gonna wait for you/I’ve done that already and all I felt was blue/I’ve got you up on a pedalstool/and baby, I’m not waiting for you//Tonight/I want to say “forever”/but it’s coming down to ‘now or never’/no, I’ll never get through with just my memory of you/and if you’re not mine, I don’t want to waste my time/I want to say ‘forever’/but it’s coming down to ‘now or never,’ tonight// I know what you think/and I’m willing to compromise/ready to break through/ready to forgive your lies/oh, you know I tried/and you know I’m always right…you always knew one day I’d give into you
Where do you land, when nobody sees you fall?/what do you say when there’s no one listening at all? who do you run to when nobody’s around?/what do you do when the pain keeps you on the ground?//People you know, people you don’t/no one to trust/nowhere to call home/it’s a lonely, lonely road/nobody’s got your back/you’re on your own/you may feel sorry for that homeless little girl/but you let her be alone ’cause you know, there’s no changing the world//What do you think when all you can do is wonder why? How do you breathe when all you can do is cry? Why don’t you try when there’s only a glimmer of hope? Why don’t you show the part of you only God knows?//
I’m always doing something wrong/never been good enough/and this pain I live with always seems to be too much/You never miss a single mistake/the worst, you have a list of those/and I never hear the end/it’s this about you I hate the most//and because I love you/you break my heart every day/because I love you/I never want to walk away/but this heart’s in pieces I will never find/nothing I do ever pleases though we’re perfect, in my mind/because I love, I break down every night/because I love you, I always think you’re right//You tear me into little pieces/and tell me everything I’ve screwed up/I never know your reasons/and it’s just too hard to be enough for you/you say I try too hard/but I try ’cause I’m never right no matter how hard I try/I always lose the fight//You laugh when I cry/see through when I lie I always wonder why I even try
I have all I ever wanted/but you come over like a wave of pain/taking away all I worked for – You cut my heart like a razorblade/you make all my hope fade/turn all my sunshine into rain – I lie awake/trying to erase your name//It’s always about what I do/to make you fall apart, to make you come unglued/and all the things I tried to do/were never worse than what I got from you/So take a step back to square one/look at me, finally/you never saw me, no, let me fall or rise and come undone/take me back to square one, love//What do I mean to you? just another girl in the world that revolves around you/when will I be something more? get it together, then you break me down/it’s like you don’t want me to smile/I can’t get used to feeling worthwhile//
Album: panic gracefully
You don’t know/but you’ll sing me to sleep again tonight/I’ll dream of something better/than what I go through in this life/wish you knew how much you mean to me/Wish you knew you set me free// close my eyes and dream right/wishing you were holding me tight/’cause I miss your words/hey made things better with every verse/but the fast-lane changed you more than I hoped/you’re not the guy I used to know/so I’ll just have to love you/from the other side of the radio//saw you yesterday/in a pitiful tabloid magazine/you with some girl, without a name/smiling like a child, hoping in vain/you’re not just what she thinks you are/Mr. Uncommitted Superstar/But that’s just who you are//Can’t begin to explain/how much I wish you were here again/the old you, the one from back then/before you knew the price of fame/What I wouldn’t give for that now/wish you could be back somehow
Here, I’m still awake at 3 in the morning/Singing songs about being lonely/and I am falling apart/and it’s like… //You don’t know me at all/It’s like you don’t see I’m about to fall/About to hit the wall/I’m a teenage disaster/I’m falling faster/and it’s like you don’t know me at all/you don’t know me at all//Oh You see through my resolve, chaotic and dissolved/and I keep holding on//and I’m falling faster now/still can’t get my feet on the ground/I’m falling farther now/don’t know how low I can go//
Don’t you see I’m gone/Right in front of you, Vanished/My heart left traces of me hanging on/But you didn’t even notice//I’m leaving empty-handed/no love lost, none to lose anyway/so I’m here stranded/I’m leaving empty-handed/Leaving home, I’m going empty-handed/Oh Woah Oh//One hand in my faded pocket/and one on my lips/Shh Shh (don’t say it)/The past is dead now//We’re different people/But who’s the same, oh/We’ll never be right/This I’ve always known//
I’ve never felt so betrayed/Never been left so alone/Hate to admit that I’m afraid/my cover’s blown/I used to stand up for all I believed in/Now all I can do is wait for mercy to step in/and bring this pain to an end, oh//Here in this moment, I’m standing barenaked in the middle of a busy street/(Here in this moment)/My hands are cold and I can’t feel my feet/I’m alone and frozen/Here in this moment//Oh, Didn’t think my heart could be so broken/didn’t think I’d end up in the thick of it/always believed you without knowing/everything you said was bullsh–/I never cried until you and now I can’t seem to stop/what have I let you turn me into/I never cried until you//I’m not gonna take it/I won’t stand around/no, not any longer/I’m getting stronger/and not ’cause you lied/not ’cause I cried/but ’cause there’s a part of me I’ve found/that used to be around/and I’ve been awakened/I’m not gonna take it, no//
I don’t know what you want from me/but you better figure it out/I’m willing to go back to the way things were/before I knew about her/It’s funny the things I said I’d never forgive/and now I want to try again/and somehow you can make me forget/all the pain I have to live with//How could you go back on promises/of truth, faith, and love/How could something so beautiful/hurt so damn much/Now you’re back to being something/that I can’t touch/It’s kinda funny how you never made me suspect/I didn’t see it coming/it was beautiful irony that took you from me//I try to see things your way/but I find it hard to believe a word you say/You want me back in my place/but I wouldn’t be okay/back in your disgrace/It’s crazy how much I love you/even though you’ve always been untrue/It’s stupid how easily I come unglued/when I’m alone with you//
Life goes on sometimes/even though I don’t want it to/I have to go on/with nothing to look forward to/When I wake up/just want to go back to sleep/but who am I to know/exactly what I need//Tell me, am I dreamin’?/Could have sworn I saw your face/but maybe I only see what I want/and my mind is left without a trace/Can’t seem to move on/you’re long gone/Another girl, another place/or is it your face I keep seein’?/Tell me, Am I dreamin’?//You used to be everything/I wanted to hold on to/but now, now you’re just another/I was glad to lose/Maybe I really want you/but I don’t know//
you tear me down/keep my pieces on the ground/looking up at you/all i wanna do is pray/pray that you just walk away/and i tell myself//God’ll make me stronger/get me out of this mess/keep me alive longer/’cause God knows best/but who knows how it really is/how do i know the truth/what have i put my faith into//you make me cry sometimes i just wanna die/but you won’t let me/and i just wanna give up/give up, i have had enough/but i tell myself//i sleep waiting to dream/and i need to know, yeah//
I’ve written so many songs for you/about being broken/I laid everything out in chewable little pieces/now my soul is out in the open/But I’m going under/and I wonder//How can I expect paradise/when we both excel in hell/I’m sorry I’m sick of this life/I’m sorry that I fell/but you were like heaven/and something I could feel/thought I could finally/hold onto something real/How can I expect bliss/when I know all I’ll get is this//So start dissecting my explanations for things I’ve done to you/make me feel even more guilty/for telling you the truth/I’m going under/and I wonder//Ooh, oh/Everybody’s saying/’you gotta look to the sky’/then you will find out why/everyone’s leaning on you/and how to break through//
Late night, bitter fight/got me burning out from the inside/can’t believe I lost my grip/and I told you I’ve had enough of this/Truth is, I never wanted to say goodbye/and I wish I could take it all away and you never cried/with all the silence built up between us/I wish I could be someone you could trust//So let me go/Don’t come back/See if I can’t handle this life without you/I’ll stay up/and scream out/but you’ll be in L.A. when I start to wonder/where we went wrong//Last night, feeling fine/lost all sense of all my wasted time/can’t believe I let you slip away again/and now I’m all alone in this bed of sin/Truth is, I never got over you/and when you walked away/I went too/In my heart, in my head/you’re still all I can’t forget, oh//I wish you’d just grow up/and be the man I wish you were/but all this wishin’ won’t make you see/how much you still need me/oh, you still need me//Why you let me go/Didn’t come back/Saw I couldn’t handle this life without you/now, I stay up/and scream out/and you’re in L.A. and I start to wonder/where we went wrong
I wish you’d just get over her/now that I can’t get any soberer/Sometimes I get bored/wishing you’d just cut the cord/and leave her behind//But she’s what you see/when you turn out the light/she’s the reason that/you still can’t sleep at night/and all I can do is wait/until it’s me you see/when you close your eyes/You tell me it’s just a matter of time/and I hope you’re right/’cause I’m not waiting/for the rest of my life//I don’t want to get caught up and carried away/when I don’t even want to be here today/I’ve lost all my faith in you/I just can’t seem to tell you we’re through/Buried beneath my half-hearted smile/is a heart that’s been waiting a while//
her feet are cold/she doesn’t know what to do/life’s just a mystery/if only she had a clue/if only she knew//she had a million reasons to walk away/but she only needed one to stay/and she still wonders if love is enough/when life together gets too tough/she had a million reasons to walk away/but she only needed one to stay//her heart is set/she doesn’t want to let go/she’s just wondering/if only she didn’t know/if only she could go//she let her heart take her by the hand/lead her away from that man/who claims to know me/who claims to care/but he’s not even there
Hey, Mr. Misery/quit talking to me/You’re all I think about/and I can’t sleep/You lay your troubles on me/and it makes me feel guilty/for things I did not do/Things you know I’d never do to you/Hey, Mr. Misery/stop breaking into me/you tear my heart out/and I have to leave/You push me further away/and I truly want to stay/But you hurt me too much/I’m afraid we’re losing touch/Hey, Mr. Misery/Please set me free/Let me be alone for a while/so I can keep my sanity/You lay your troubles on me/makes me feel so guilty/for things I did not do/Things you know I’d never do to you/Hey, Mr. Misery/quit talking to me/You’re all I think about/and I can’t sleep
Non-Album Tracks
I Keep Holding On [from the Some Kind of Miracle soundtrack]
This life is anything but easy for us/it’s taken all that I have to keep from giving up/Lord knows I have enough reasons to hang tough/but sometimes it just doesn’t feel like enough/Now it gets harder to let you go/and I just want you to know//I keep holding on just for you/I remmber that in all that I do/I live ’cause you breathe/yeah, you’re all that I need/I need you to know that I love you, baby/and when I’m finally gone/you can still go on/I keep holding on just for you//When I can’t smile or hold my head up/I look to you and suddenly I’m high above/holding on to you is more than enough/to prove to me that there is such a thing as love/And though it gets harder everyday/’cause of you, I can smile and say…//
Novacaine [from the Devolution soundtrack]